It seems time goes by so quickly once the burden of keeping things hidden is gone. Now that most of my family know all about me and my plans for the future I can actually begin to enjoy life in general. For a transgendered person, enjoying life is sometimes hard to do. There is always the thought in the back of their mind, "Do these people know about me?"

 I, like so many others, lived in fear of being "read" (found out) every time I walked out the door. It's so easy for those of us who are out into the public eye on a daily basis to tell others that you just have to do it and hope for the best. Believe me, it isn't as easy as some would have you to believe it is. The first time I went out in public I was scared to death. I just knew everyone was staring at me and pointing fingers. After a few times going out, I gained the needed confidence to make things easier.

 All I can say ladies is to keep trying and sooner or later it will be like second nature to you.

  It's been almost 9 months since I began the hormone treatments. The physical changes have been slow at coming but to me worth the time it takes. I've noticed more of a change in my personality than physical changes. There has been significant changes in breast developement. I'm still a member of the so called itty-bitty club but for me that is quite alright. I don't mind being an A cup as long as they are all me and not silicon. Other than the deformative that is located below my waist, I am happy with my body for once in my life.